Seven-Fucking-Teen

I think birthdays get better each year. Well I think that would only make since, you have to 'out do' the last year. I'd say this year was definatly better then any other but thats thanks to the people that were a part of it.

My day was sort of in sections. I woke up in the morning at 7:30 and wasn't happy about it. I was pretty cranky all through the morning. See my dad recieved this 'ride along' nas car type thing from my grandma for his birthday and one of the days he could go do it was today. So him and I, and Ashley, Tony and Killian got in the car and drove like an hour and a half to Cementville or something of that nature with cement in the name. We got there and it was really foggy and we went and stood next to the track which was ginourmous. I have to admit I was a little impressed aside from my extreme crankiness and not wanting to be there. I don't know why, I think Killian made the car ride not so fun. But after sitting there for about 10 minutes they said that had to cancel for the day. So I was ready to leave, get on with my day. But instead Tony and my dad start looking at the cars blah blah blah. Ashley and I sat on this wall and just talked. They had nas car used tires on sale for $5 and she was obsessed with getting one. I said she was red neck. After 15 minutes or so they decided to let people go in these 15 people vans and go around the track at 70, so at least it wasn't a waste (and they would come back another week to do the ride along). So of course Killian wanted to, and that was really ghetto looking seeing a giant van trying to peel out. Pretty funny. Brady called me at some point during all this, and that was really nice of him. He wished me a happy birthday and we talked for a few minutes. That made me a little less cranky. Until it started raining while they were in the van. Ashley and I ran under neither the track and waited for them to finish where we then went home.

We got home around 11:30 and we went and met my mom. First I opened her presents which was fun becuase I already recieved all my other ones. From my sister, (OC season 2), my dad (blankets and stuff for my room I had wanted), and Meghan and Tony (Green Day tickets). So I opened my moms presents and she got me a shirt, 3 tank tops that would go with it and a sweater we are probally taking back. Also Some mints, batteries and lotto tickets. (The Last 3 items are inside jokes). And she had this really good looking reeses cake sitting there that looked very yummy and in fake I still havn't had any of it. I may eat some after adding this. Any who, then we went out to lunch at Bennigans which turned out very good. I sat and talked with my mom on stuff I hadn't told her about yet, vented a little bit. And her reaction was a lot better then I ever imagined. The three of us together if you can imagine is one of the funnest things in the world. I love my friends and hanging out with them, but a dose of my mom and sister is the best thing in the world for me sometimes. My sister over the summer became my best friend, she knows everything about me I swear. I mean, we worked together and our friends were busy a lot through the summer so she was the one I hung out with. Any who...on with the day. After lunch we went home and I parted for my dads.

I watched the final 2 epsisodes of my OC before people arrived. And I got a little bit of the Teen Choice Awards, actually I turned it on to the part I wanted to see which was awesome. Rachel Mcadams, so awesome. Any who after that Justin and Chris showed up. Justin gave me a very humours card and $10, Chris and I normally go shopping and/or a movie, so I'll look forward to that. Kelly showed up a little later with a baby voice "Wheres my birthday girl? There she is!!!". That made me almost die. After talking a little while we ordered pizza and by the time it got there Casey and Sara had also arrived. Oh, Kelly got me 'Annie' and 'Clue', and Casey got me 'Napolean Dynomite', which are all awesome movies. We talked and watched Fuse for a while and ate. We started one episode of OC, Sara left and the boys played darts. After a few minutes though my mom called and I couldn't tell if she was cracking up or crying. She was hysteric.

"Are there boys at your party?!"
"Yes..."
"Bring them over here...I have a mouse in the kitchen!!!!"
"Okay, we'll be right over"

So we all hop in the car and go rescue my mom from the mouse. Which turned out to be a mole, actually probally a schrew. It was on a sticky trap and after deciding we shouldn't kill it Chris pryed it off of the matt with a stick which was a good idea until its furr still had the stick, and had sticks and grass and dirt all over it then. We set it in the feild a little ways and went inside to chat with my mom a bit.

We returned to my dads house and watched the 'Blair Witch Project'. I loved this movie, maybe it was the setting. I mean Casey and Kelly seemed freaked out on either side of me and it made me want to get scared. It was intence in parts and I loved the ending. It sort of reminded me of 'Saw' with the basement and all that. But I really liked it. And you have to think about how you want to interperate it almost. I really liked it, even though Justin claimed I wouldn't. When people tell me I won't like something no one has ever been right. Any who, during a really scary part Rachel showed up and scared the crap out of us all. Mainly because the dogs barked, and she created mass confusion by going to the front door. But it made the 'scary mood' all the better I suppose. So she sat and finished the movie. Then as soon as it was over, we were still discussing it all and a little freaked out, and Zach showed up with his extremly loud knocking, lol. It was good to see him also.

After a while we put in 'Clue' which we were in and out of. For some reason at that point I couldn't focus, but it was still fun watching. Casey headed out after the movie followed by Kelly and Zach. Chris left a little bit later and Rachel and Justin mentioned leaving. But the three of us ended up talking about random things in the kitchen for about an hour. They left more around 1, and I really enjoyed talking with them.

I enjoyed the random group. Casey doesn't hang out with us much, or Sara or Rachel. And it was really fun to have them there throughout the night, it makes it better.

This was my best bithday so far. I havn't taken advantage of any of the perks yet but don't worry I will. Probally during next week while my dad is gone, and we have a 4 day weekend. And of course Kelly's bithday. Any who...Thank you all who came and made my birthday the best yet. I think next year would be hard to top this for me. I mean...friends, schrews, movies, and randomness...

Back Into The Swing Of Things

I sat there tonight beside my sister watching OC, epsiode like 14 or 15 had just finished and it was 10:28. I said "my goal tonight is to shower, blow dry my hair and be in bed at 11. Well this would have worked except its 11:03 and instead I am posting. I think its tradition to write about how good/bad your first day of school was. But first, yesterday (being Tuesday) OC season 2 came out on DVD. I woke up early to go to Best Buy and purchase it. (Thanks to my sister who paid for it because my birthday is Saturday). And I watched 13 episodes throughout the day. Kelly was around for a while, and Jenny and Alise stoped in for a while too. I miss seeing them at school, and although it caused me to go to bed at about 1 I didn't want to pass up the last chance before they moved to college.

So the first day. A meeting in the auditorium that I always want to skip. I was just ploting how to kill myself while sitting there when Chris jumps over the seat and appears next to me (which was not the only time he did that all day). And he made the stupid thing go faster. Since freshman year we've been through the boring assembllys together. Any who, after this boring talk was first hour. I have it with Sara and it doesn't sound to bad. How bad can computers be? I'll catch up Mondays and Tuesdays and skip the rest of the week. Maybe...

Second hour. Kelly, Justin, and Chris to keep me company. Looking around at the group it could be another fun year or I could kill myself. The group can easily break or make the class...but I guess thats how all of them go.

Third hour with no one really. Only people in there is a little awkward, and I looked around to see if I could hang out with someone new this year. No canidates. The room was rediculous. I guess english will just have to suck...

Lunch, ahhh....Best lunch I could have hoped for. I deserved it after 3 years of no one to talk to in any lunch. Chris like usual, Mary, Kelly, Emmaleigh....and more who arn't at the table. Fun times.

Fourth hour shouldn't be to bad either. Jake, Brady and Chris are in it. Which will be awesome until the seatin chart. We talk to much...but its the only time I see them really. I can imagine I won't pay attention to much in there...haha, but looking around its all stupid people any ways.

Fifth hour I'm a TA for Nolan. I had to go to the auditorium and un-stack chairs for the next hour. Then I went back to the room and watched her freshman class. Silly little kids. One kid answered "I just want to leave this town" and I had to laugh...they have at least 3 long years ahead of them....suckers...

Sixth hour. Drama. The hour I was excited and nervous about all day. She annouced our top choices and I couldn't give a shit about either. I will be into the play don't get me wrong, and dedicated. Its just that I don't give a rats ass out of the two its down to, so I don't care about voting. I won't complain about either one...just don't have a preference I guess.

After school was rediculous. Well first I took Kelly home, which wasn't the rediculous part. Although I got to the car and realized I never saw Mary after school. Kelly just asked me for a ride and we got our stuff and left, and I didn't think until I got to my car that Mary probally had to take them bus. Well, maybe she had practise. Who knows. Any who...Then I watched one more episode of OC before taking an hour nap before work. I was completly out for this nap....that is the rediculous part. Then work made me cranky. To many people at both buildings and they were cranky, made me cranky, but at least its my last day for the week.....

Hope everyone enjoyed their first days...

Cedar Point

Yesterday I went to Cedar Point which was a lot of fun. It was my dad, Aunt Judy, Chris and Mary. Chris and Mary's personalities made for a fun day. The three of us had a lot of fun, and Mary got to experience real roller coasters. We went on most rides. Tried out the new Max Air, which was pretty sweet. You stare at the ground straight below you and then fall forward, and at times feel upside down. We left earlier then normal because we were all pretty dead. The sun was tiring, and I started getting pretty hungry. We went to Outback for dinner which was very good. And the three of us talked through Michigan of the up coming school year...

I hate how every day my mind changes. I go through so many things a day in my head and its getting overwhelming. I feel like I am constantly pulled in every direction...excitment, stress, happiness, frusteration....I can't sort it out and the buzzing won't stop. I lay in bed at night with out sleep because I just lay there thinking. The car ride home yesterday I put my sunglasses on and laid there, thinking. Going through situation after situation...And you would think all this would sort stuff out, and its just getting worse I think. I can't stop it...I don't understand, and worse of all I don't know what to do.

For once I want to make the right dicision...

'Red Eye'

Tonight after work I met Casey to see 'Red Eye'. It was everything I expected and was not disapointed at all. I will definatly buy this movie...it was just awesome. Rachel Mcadams is really good in it, I love how she is a bad ass. She isn't a whimpy girl like some stupid actresses in thrillers. She actually holds her own and is awesome. Cillian Murphy was also really good. You get to the point where you loath him just like her. You want him dead for fucking with you....

I don't want to give anything away, but it was rediculously good...I suggest to go see it.

Tomorrow I have my 'August Birthday' celebration with my family. This means half the family pretty much (me being one of them). So that will be fun, in the aspect I get some gifts. Yeah that sounds greedy. But I'm not going hide it...we all love getting stuff, just admit it! Then on Sunday I am going to Cedar Point. That will be my offical "End of Summer".

Today was my last day of work for a full week. Next week I go to Mondays and Wednesday. And this Thursday was the last time for babysitting Killian. So my summer is definatly winding down quickly. But Cedar Point will kind of have top it off.

I'm in a better mood latly. Not as depressed...more optimistic about the fresh new start of a year.

Old Diaries

Ever since I started writing in Dairies online I've always wanted to print them off. I have a part of one Diary I printed like a year ago, but over the last few weeks I've been putting my old diary from Diaryland into word so I could print it easily. I finally finished today although I havn't printed it yet. It is 366 pages long and spans from 4-27-2003 - 7-11-2005. I think its cool I stuck with that one for so long...It was fun

Schedule and Up North

I went up north this weekend and just got home a few hours ago. First off I got my schedule...

1st - Desktop Publishing / Word Processing
2nd - Video Production
3rd - English 12
4th - Sociology / Economics
5th - TA
6th - Theater Production

So ya, let me know if you have classes with me. Up north was a lot of fun. Well, not much to it. We vegged most of the time. Watched movies had fires at night. We watched "Mean Girls", "Life Aquatic", "Laws of Attraction", "National Treasure" and random disney things Killian brought. I want to own "Means Girls" and "Laws of Attraction". They both need to be added on my never ending list of "I want".

Coming home today Tony informs my dad and I that he is no longer going to Cedar Point. So my dad didn't want to go because we have no idea with Mary and honestly I assume she isn't. And we didn't know with Chris. So I was really upset because everything as already been fucked up and now he wasn't going at all. But then I told him we should take all the coins back from our huge coin jar, and he says all the money will go to the trip and we can go. And we also took pop bottles. Well he was hoping for like $40 so we could cover one ticket. Well we had a grand total of $118. ($20 of which were bottles, the rest was all just coins). So now we are going for sure, and have gas taken care of to. LoL.

And while walking into the store Chris found me and we chatted a bit. And he is for sure going, weather they actually did by the ticket that night when they were there or not...but he is going. And I think my dad is down stairs talking to my aunt. So we may be able to revive this trip. I hope so...its my last ditch effort to make this suck ass summer somewhat good. Trust me...I'm not set on that.

Quotes from the Weekend:

"Give me my fucking pillow!!"

"God damnit intern, you're getting a fucking 'A'"

"POOP!"

"Just think about the meadow with flowers!"

Reading

I finished the 6th Harry Potter last night. By far my favorite. I really like how they have actually relationships going on in this one. It seems like everyone at some point 'snog' or whatever. Which amuses me. It just seems like for once they are more grown up. Besides that my other favorite parts, would give away to much.

But now I feel like I have nothing to do. I think for once I got myself hooked on reading. I mean since the day school ended I have read every night practicly. I read Harry Potter 3-6 because I was wanted to remember details and stuff. Any who, now that I'm done I want a new book but don't know what to pick up. We only have a week before school also which means I have to read something for english most likly. Although over the next week I don't want to loose my habit because perhaps I can actually read front to back, a book for school. I don't think I ever have because I feel I have no time. But now that I'm used to reading on all my down time instead of the TV or internet...I may be able to.

Random yes, and boring probally.

....Have a good weekend

Jungle Rave

Last night ended up very random. I got out of work when I wanted to and thank god didn't have to do anything extra. So I called Mary and we had in mind the normal group and a few extras. Everyone we kept thinking of had plans already. And we finally got ahold of Sarah and she said the reason we couldn't track down any of the 'seniors' was because they were going to a raze at the green house.

So after Zach left and kind of waiting for it to get dark we headed out. I had no idea what to except. At first everyone was just chillin and eating and putting glow sticks on. Then at about 10 they all started to dance. Crazy music, glow sticks and dancing. I guess thats what the "Jungle Rave" was. Chris left after not to long, and I wasn't surprised. He hates dancing, as do I and Justin. Mary I thought did but she got right in there. It was more of 'flailing about' but I still wasn't all that interested. I had a lot of fun though, it was a different experince. Lots of random different people came which was interesting. We ended up leaving at like 10:30 though because I was so tired. I don't think others wanted to...but drive yourself next time. Latly I've felt if I'm tired, I want to go home, I don't care. I think its pointless to have to stay right until midnight if its not going to pick up from there. That was the height of the rave, so why screw myself over for today. I dono....theres a lot more on that topic, but whatever.

Happy Hump Day!

Another Weekend

My weekend has been good, and I believe it all has to do with uncommon events. Friday I got out of work and had dinner with Ashley and Josiah at Old Chicago. It was fun, and Josiah cracks me up. I am so glad they are still dating, he makes her so happy. After dinner we went home and all hung out. Mainly in my room, with some music playing and Josiah drawing pictures on my white board. I didn't go to bed that night until 5:30 in the morning because I finished reading the 5th Harry Potter, then started the 6th that I had purchased that evening. Good so far, but I don't want to give my comments until I finish...

The next morning I went over to Marys pretty much until Kelly and I went to Justins. Zach, Kelly, Phil, Justin, Rachel, Mary and I were the group for his birthday thingy. We went to East Wood where we went to Johnny Rockets for lunch/dinner whatever. Then we went to Wedding Crashers even though only 3 out of 7 where 17....he he. Only 20 more days, do not fear...

The movie was hilarious, uncomfortable in parts...but honestly I was laughing constantly. I don't remember the last time I've laugh like that. And I don't think I was the only one. I know Rachel next to me laughed a lot also. She enjoyed the brother....until he got gross. I liked the nut job, and Rachel McAdams is awesome. She is so cute, and is so different with every role she plays. And I like that she is fairly new. Only 4 movies under her belt. Not a bad start...

Any who. Last night my house was empty, after the movie and cards and stuff. So I had all the snacks I was craving while sitting at Marys. Was online a little, and watched TV, and it didn't matter what with all the cable we have...because no one saw me...*insert evil cackle*

No really I'm a good kid....

Today I woke up around 11 which is early for not having a set time to be up...lol. Sad, yes. Any who, I showered and met my mom. We went to lunch at Olga's and I tell you. Shopping at the mall on Sunday's is outragous. There were so many hot guys I couldn't focus on anything. And one stared at me during my lunch, he was a hotty....Any who, my mom and I went to the Buckle where I found the tops for my Senior pictures. That was the point in shopping, to get my outfits for the pictures. I got 3 tops at the buckle. (shoes and pants don't matter, I'm wearing some I already have). So I got a white button down one that I know I'll wear a lot. We figured that would be for my black and white ones. Then that top goes under a green sweater I got. And I also got a green button down top. All three I love...I can't wait for my pictures. I showed Mary the tops, and she liked them.

After the mall my mom and I went to 7/11 and she got a slushy. This guy was talking to her and couldn't believe that slushys have been around for like 40 years and she had never had one. So he told the guy at the front desk that she should get it free. And it worked...all because my mom was a "slushy virgin' .

Then we went to NCG and she had me watch 'Wedding Crashers' again. Still funny, but the crowd didn't laugh as much so I didn't let my self laugh out loud much. Just kept it in more. I like crowds that are fun...

Now I'm sleepy, and have to do both jobs tomorrow...ugh. I hate Mondays....

Venting

First off....Happy Birthday Justin! (It was yesterday but I never ended up posting anything....)

I have been depressed lately. I can't figure out whats really bothering me, but as a whole I have just not been happy. Me and my dad are fine again, my mom is being her usual self (selfish...only thinking of herself). I feel like even when I have time to get out and be with my friends I feel like I'm really fake. Putting up a front like I'm happy. I mean, I've just been so lazy in my down time and just don't want to do anything. Everything seems like an effort to me. I feel like even going and seeing my friends is such and effort and its almost a turn off. Like, thinking of gas to get places, money I don't have, then paying for stuff once we go somewhere. Its like I'd almost rather stay home. I know that sounds horrible....but for some reason I'm in this giant rut of unhappiness and I can't get out. I don't know exactly what it is, or what will fix it.

Also I think I've been complaining a lot in here....maybe its more of venting...but, sorry.

Betrayed

My family has always run pretty well on trust. Any one who knows me real well knows that I can tell my parents anything I want and it works out fine. I don't have to lie to them when I am hanging out with friends, and because they trust me they let me do whatever I want. I would only assume my parents would use the same respect for me and tell me things they do. Am I wrong thinking that?

Over the past two weeks or so I have run into this not being true with my dad. He for once in his life is starting to date. See, he pretty much never did before my mom, married her, and hasn't dated since. Well my aunt kind of helped him hook up with this lady she works with I believe and last week he went to a dinner thing at my aunt and uncles house. It was a group of like 6 couples, this one girl, and my dad. Since my mom dates I am totally fine with it. The thing I am not okay with is my dad leaving me in the dark about it. My sister hears everything and he tells her all about it. Me...oh no. I find out from my mom who my aunt called up and told. So isn't that nice...I hear from my mom my dad has a date. Finally since he knew I found out about it he told me and had me help him get dressed ect. So I figure since he knows I'm okay with it him being secrative would go away. But no. I find out from my other aunt this weekend, and my sister...who I guess also knew...that he had then been following up and calling her. No big deal.....but why tell everyone but me?!

AND come today my dad says he is going to my Aunt Judys to spend the night, and tomorrow they are going to play golf. I found this a little random but he said she just is gettin bored being unemployed. So I notice as he is getting ready that he seems a little dressed up just to go spend the night at his sisters house. And he smells good when I hug him goodbye. Yeah, that may sound wrong...but my dad never wears any cologne or anything, and is making an attempt to. So he leaves and I walk down stairs and ask Ashley, "is dad really only seeing Aunt Judy tonight?" and at first she didn't know what I was talking about then said, "What...oh, no...he has a date tonight".

Thats just awesome. Why does my dad feel that he has to keep stuff from me. I feel like he is lying to me. I have always told him everything, and have never had to lie to him, or keep stuff from him because I thought we were all honest. Is he being a role model showing me its okay to lie? Maybe that is a bit extreme, but I feel like he doesn't deserve to hear the truth about my nights any more....I don't know...I feel betrayed almost...

Summer Cold

This past weekend I was in Grand Rapids for a few days. Friday after work Ashley and I drove over to see my aunt and 4 month old cousin. Not really a drive you want to do at 9 o clock and just wanting to be home. But we got there and had some pizza, played with Emma a bit (the baby) and watched random TV before going to bed around 1.

Saturday I woke up early because of Emma. My aunt has AC so she doesn't own any fans, and even though we have AC at our house I always have a fan on me...I like to be freezing. So I slept like crap the first night, fell asleep around probally 2. Then woke up around 8 because of Emma. So I knew it was going to be a long day. We dropped Emma off at my Aunt Mary (lives about 10 mins away) so that we could do our birthday thing Judy had planned. First we went to lunch which was mexican, because Grand Rapids has a few good places and Okemos doesn't have any mexican any more which is not cool. Any who, after lunch we went and got our 'Birthday Gifts'. Which was full body massages from a spa place. If you've never had any type of massage I highly suggest it. I actually like giving them also, but thats beside the point. Any who, last summer we had facials which was just as fun in a different way. But the full body was awesome. She worked on my back forever, and I guess I had a lot of knots because that took forever.

After the massages we picked up Emma and my other cousin Alyssa for the night. We rented like 3 movies and went back and hung out for the night. We first watched 'Spanglish' which was pretty good but seemed long. I normally don't watch dramas so that might be why. Then we went out to dinner and returned to watch 'The Notebook'; a personal favoriate of mine, and 'Miss Congeniality 2'. Funny in parts, but I liked the first one better I think. Hard to tell becasue it was late and I was tired (and sick).

Sleeping was better that night because I crashed in the basement and its cooler down there. But Sunday we all woke up and went out to lunch and shortly after that Ashley and I drove home. I talked to Kelly most of the way, and some how we turned the like hour and a half trip into just about an hour. (We didn't mention that to my dad...lol).

After returning home I continued to feel like shit. My nose was horrible and my head felt like a balloon. Basically I had what my dad claimed as a 'Summer Cold'. Well thats just dandy. Today watching Killian hasn't been a big deal but I don't want to go clean tonight, just because I'll get done with something, sneeze, then have to redo it or something. Let alone how achy I am. Normally when I'm sick I am pretty cranky. But last night I was very nice to my dad, and appreciated the stuff he was doing for me. Yay for me for not being a bitch!

Also I have a few different plans now that its August, as in mini trips. Actually three major ones. Unfortenatly over the last few days every single one has been altered not for the good. So that currently IS making me cranky. But what can you do. Any who...basically this summer sucks. I hate it, there has been nothing good, and not much to look forward to....I wana go back.