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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Betrayed

My family has always run pretty well on trust. Any one who knows me real well knows that I can tell my parents anything I want and it works out fine. I don't have to lie to them when I am hanging out with friends, and because they trust me they let me do whatever I want. I would only assume my parents would use the same respect for me and tell me things they do. Am I wrong thinking that?

Over the past two weeks or so I have run into this not being true with my dad. He for once in his life is starting to date. See, he pretty much never did before my mom, married her, and hasn't dated since. Well my aunt kind of helped him hook up with this lady she works with I believe and last week he went to a dinner thing at my aunt and uncles house. It was a group of like 6 couples, this one girl, and my dad. Since my mom dates I am totally fine with it. The thing I am not okay with is my dad leaving me in the dark about it. My sister hears everything and he tells her all about it. Me...oh no. I find out from my mom who my aunt called up and told. So isn't that nice...I hear from my mom my dad has a date. Finally since he knew I found out about it he told me and had me help him get dressed ect. So I figure since he knows I'm okay with it him being secrative would go away. But no. I find out from my other aunt this weekend, and my sister...who I guess also knew...that he had then been following up and calling her. No big deal.....but why tell everyone but me?!

AND come today my dad says he is going to my Aunt Judys to spend the night, and tomorrow they are going to play golf. I found this a little random but he said she just is gettin bored being unemployed. So I notice as he is getting ready that he seems a little dressed up just to go spend the night at his sisters house. And he smells good when I hug him goodbye. Yeah, that may sound wrong...but my dad never wears any cologne or anything, and is making an attempt to. So he leaves and I walk down stairs and ask Ashley, "is dad really only seeing Aunt Judy tonight?" and at first she didn't know what I was talking about then said, "What...oh, no...he has a date tonight".

Thats just awesome. Why does my dad feel that he has to keep stuff from me. I feel like he is lying to me. I have always told him everything, and have never had to lie to him, or keep stuff from him because I thought we were all honest. Is he being a role model showing me its okay to lie? Maybe that is a bit extreme, but I feel like he doesn't deserve to hear the truth about my nights any more....I don't know...I feel betrayed almost...

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