Whatever

I feel like I'm just walking around doing the emotions. I'm never really happy. I havn't seen a long stretch of happiness since...we won't go into that. I'm constantly stressed. I bring stress on my self though I think. I'm a perfectionist. If I want to be involved in something I have to do it all my self, because the way other people do it bugs me. The talent show, all on my shoulders. I'm frickin running it and that stresses me out. I didn't realize I was completly doing it until it was to late. But then again, I guess I had it coming. I like being in charge...but its stressful.

My friends stress me out to. I feel like not one person I can completly vent to. Actually I hate venting. I don't feel important enough to explain my issues. I feel like every one elses, no matter what it is, has bigger issues then mine. If I do vent I feel like they are bored, so I don't bother any more. Then I get home from school and feel like I just walked through a day, just going through the steps.

I just had a f-ing book thrown at my head because I don't smile at home ever. Whatever.

I like a guy where it will never go any where. And I'm to 'lazy' to move on. And to scared from everything in the past to even want to attempt something new. I can't even go into how many rejections I've had over the last year. Whatever.

School isn't hard but I don't even feel like trying at the little things I have.

I constantly have a head ache. Whats that about?

When I ask someone to stop I feel like I speak a different language. No one ever just stops for me.

I have to go through the empty walk all over again in 10 hours...