Cranky Turned Into Sentimental Memories

We had our own family dinner tonight. Family being some of the most important people to me...my friends. Chad, Tia and Hannah. Also Erin was with us because she was going with Tia to an NHS thing afterwards. It was a lot of fun. Danced in the kitchen listening to 'Rent' and randomly casting us as the people. We'd love to make a music video/reanactment (sp?) thing with it. It'd be cute, and lots of fun. Maybe some day.

It as a short evening though, we all left by 5. I left cranky and I don't remember why. Certain things I'm bitter about and it just...I dono, made me cranky. I wanted to leave in a hurry after that because I knew it'd wear off and I didn't want to talk about it. I don't talk enough. I have wonderful friends who I could tell anything to, but I don't. I never have been able to in the past either. People come to me to talk, I listen, I give advice, I never judge. Actually many people come to me because of this. Maybe that's all I'm good at...listening. Oh well...don't they say that's more important?

Got home and my house phone wouldn't stop ringing. I never answer it...but I finally decided to since it was bugging me. It was my Aunt Liz who said my Aunt Judy was doing errands with her and wanted to know if we'd like to join them for dinner. Of course we did. So I had dinner with Aunt Liz, Uncle Rich, Nate, Travis, Aunt Judy and baby Emma. Tomorrow is Nate's Birthday, and Paige's...Mental note to say something to her...any who, so I think I'm seeing them again for dinner...which makes tonight a little pointless...oh well.

After dinner we came home and worked on my phone for another half hour. Still wouldn't work. Basterds. Went to set a little late. No one showed up but D Ereg. Annoying. No kids from the class show up, and yet kids outside of the class look forward to it. Unfortently everyone else was busy. But yea...I was sitting there all alone for 2 hours. This was because my dad had no idea what to paint, and was doing kind of a solo project. I found a piano in the pit. That intertained me for about 15 minutes until I couldn't figure out how to turn it on. So yea...stared at the wall for 2 hours...awesome.

Got home...still cranky. Worked on my phone for another hour. Finally works...I can now send texted messages! That only took a year of begging. And I got a new ring tone from the internet. This was only because my dad promised me one like 6 months ago but we didn't have a way to get it onto my phone because we needed a special cord...but now I have internet on my phone so he let me. It's so happy. We joked about it, every time I hear it I have to dance. And I told him I might stop picking up the phone because I'll be dancing. Haha...good times. One of those bonding moments with my dad. Gotta love it.

Less cranky because of him. One of the things I'll miss next year is my parents. Everyone complains about their parents but my mom and dad are like my best friends. Ever since the divorce they have been my friends and not my parents. Which is annoying at times just because, you still need a parentel role in ur life...but times like tonight when your dancing to a silly ring tone and joking around, or last night...listening to Christmas music you remember from when you were 5, crying over the dog eating your Christmas present...while frosting Christmas cookies. That's what it's all about...

Cool Thingy

I think this is pretty sweet...Let me know if this explains you in any way. Like if you fall under a certain one...
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At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.

Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

You mean the world to someone.

If not for you, someone may not be living.

You are special and unique.

Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.

When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

When you think the world has turned its back at you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won’t get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Break Ending...

So after Thanksgiving my break continued to be awesome. Celebrated the holiday with my mom and Ashley. We watched OC all day and had a fire. And of course ate more then any person should in a day. It was a lot of fun.

Friday umm. Oh yeah! It was pretty snowy so I wasn't planning on doing anything until night-timeish, but Chad came by at about 2 o clock and kidnapped me. We got in the car and picked Hannah up even though she was in the shower. So actually we waited at her house for her to get dressed then we left. We called Adam up and went to McDonalds because Chad was hungry. The four of us hung out there for a little while then went to Chad's place. We hung around there which was a lot of fun. And thank god for me being thirsty...I'm so awesome.

Hannah went to some family thing, and we took Adam home so Chad and I went to Felpo and bought some stuff. Then we called up Tia to go to a movie. She was going to bring her cousin so I came along. We went and saw 'Rent' again. So much better the second time. I need the movie soundtrack for Christmas and I want to own the movie right now. I can't afford to go see it again...so I need to own it!! Ugh...Any who, at the movie Chad asked Tia out with a rose...it was so cute. So they're dating now. After the movie we went shopping for food that we then took to Chad's house. And...omg, he didn't have a snow scrapper. Actually we found out today it was in his car the whole time...but yea, so he used a hair brush to get snow off...it was rediculous.

Saturday Chad stopped in again in the morning. He said he couldn't hang out that night. I then called up Mary, Kelly, Casey, and Chris and we went out to lunch. That was pretty fun. After lunch went to my moms for a while which tired me out. But before actually crashing Hannah called and we got a hold of Adam and Tia. Travis called also and the 5 of us went to Bubble Island. We sat in there forever and there was random snuggling which I couldn't even begin to explain. Then we went on an awesome elevator ride...haha. Scared the crap out of Tia. Then we...um, I think we just all went home after that. Now that I have no curfew, all these kids do...so I still end up going home way early. Ugh...

Today I actually did a lot of good stuff. I woke up and made 3 batches of Christmas cookies. Well stage 1 of 3 at least. Then I did half of my cleaning which I will finish tomorrow after school. But yea, I did good. Then Chad came and got me, and Hannah was with him. The three of us went through Best Buy for what seemed like hours. I love the frickin crap out of that store. Then they had a craving for frostys so we went to Wendy's. Yumm....Then we went to Hannah's which was fun. We chilled at her house for a while, and Paul brought pizza which was really good. We basically listened to 'Rent' and took as many random pictures as possible. Omg...they crack me up.

I got home from Hannah's and started thinking of Christmas. I started working on a few gifts. Well one has complications...so then I started on my sisters. I gotta boast...I am the best sister in the WORLD! Okay, so I took all this footage from her graduation, (last day of school, commencement, open house) that was on video and put it in the computer. And now I'm scanning in all these pics from her years in high school (put to sappy awesome music) and I'm making her a really awesome DVD. I'm so awesome. I got all of her years done, but some where she has a whole seperate box with Senior stuff and I couldn't locate it. Now I must brainstorm how to get it...with out her knowing...but asking her still....HmmmHHmmmhmh. I don't know. It's just a really cool video so far. I was friends with all those kids when I was a freshman so watchin it makes me cry...it's just...really cool. I've also been working on my own, and I'm at the point where I need to scan. And I need to add my footage stuff. Lots to do...

It Was Crazy

Tuesday was our last day of school. School was pretty typical although lunch was pretty interesting...revealing funny stuff with Hannah "ME TOO!!!!!" Any who...yeah, school was actually hilarious. After school though, hmm...what hapened. I think I just sat around for a while. We were plotting what to go do, and it was turning into Chad, Hannah and I and I was thinking it might end up being a little lame. But then I suggested calling Adam and Travis, then we called Tia. Travis couldn't make it but the three of us went to go pick up Adam and it all started...

Chad had opened his door to get out, but just left the door of the car open, and one of Adam's dogs jumped in the car and scared the shit out of Chad. It was rediculous. And they did their typical "what would you do if I kissed you?" and for once Chad and Hannah actually kissed, it was crazy. I knew the night could only get better. But yea, Adam got in the car and we made our way to East Lansing, where we waited in my car for about 20 mins for Tia. Chad and I danced in the parking lot a little bit, got some weird looks. And we tried playing spin-the-bottle. Hannah and Chad kissed again I think.

Tia showed up after a little while and we walked over to Bubble Island. We got drinks and pulled 4 giant chairs together and sat and talked. Tia gave Chad a belated Birthday kiss which was really cute. Adam was practically falling asleep in his chair so we left to go to the book store. We went and got Dirty Minds which is a bored game that sounds really funny. So we got that, played with the train for a while and the cars had "train sex" which was interesting. Then we decided to go meet Tia's dad so she could stay out til midnight instead of just 9. So we drove back to town and met him which was fun. Then took my car and her car to my house, and got back in Chad's. Then we went to the Middle School side parking lot where we opened the game. And it was all like we were opening porn but weren't allowed to. I don't know why, but we handeled that game so little-kid-ish. It was funny though.

And in the car there was some interesting back seat stuff. Chad accidently put the parking break on, at which point I received a kiss but everyone missed it because Chad was spasing over the parking break. We fixed that, then he told us about this model house he had. I had no idea he even owned this thing, but yea...the 5 of us went to this house in Williamston that his family owns that has like, all the kitchen and living room stuff inside it. But no bedroom stuff. So Chad made us some Chocolate Chip cookies which was cute. But then he had to take Adam home.

Tia, Hannah and I had some fun conversations while the boys where gone and we talked about how it'd be fun to spend time in that house during Christmas break. The boys came back after a little bit, and for some reason Adam was now allowed to stay out another hour or so. So we all sat around and talked in the living room and it was really fun. Because it's not very often you can just talk with you friends. We're always searching for a place where we don't have to spend money, can hang out, but don't need to be home. And thats exactly what it was. So much fun...so crazy. Then we did this thing where we sent Chad and Adam each to a room...then Tia and Hannah went up stairs. Nothing happened, but Chad was hiding in the closet because he was scared. Then I think he started doing cartwheels because it was really loud. Any who...then we took Adam home, and took Tia to her car. Chad, Hannah and I sat in his car and talked about the night and how crazy everything was. Then I got another kiss goodbye...haha, funny times.

Wednesday was almost just as crazy. I picked Hannah up after both of us sleeping in. And we went to Meijers for my mom. Actually we went to the mall food court first to eat huge pizza's...a meal where you just kind of reveal stuff to each other no one else knows about. It was so fun. Then we went to Meijers. We did our Thanksgiving shopping for my mom. She knew if she waited until after worked it'd be packed. It was already packed even though it was only in the middle of the day. Any ways, shopping was a ton of fun. We talked about how having an appartment would be cool because she doesn't know how to shop, so I'd have to help her. Funny stuff...and we ran into a few people. Haha...But yea, then when we went to check out they wouldn't let me pay with my moms check because the address on my lisence doesn't match. Well I'm sorry my parents are divorced and all my offical things have my dads address, not my moms. Arg, I hate dumb people.

Any who, after leaving the groceries there for my mom to pick up after work we went to my dads house and watched 'Bullet in a Bible'. It was so fun. More fun to watch with someone, because I don't like to make comments sitting there alone. But yea, Billie Joe is rediculously hot...and Tre cracked us both up. Haha...funny stuff. Then we just relaxed for a little bit just talking, that was pretty hot. Then we decieded to look up movies times because we wanted to see 'Rent'. So we went to my computer for a little while, where we talked to Adam and Travis. We left after a little bit for the movie.

Such an awesome movie! I have the songs stuck in my head still, but yea...so cute. Travis ran into us before it started and he didn't even know we were going...what are the odds?! So he said when his got done he was going to come in with us, then hang out with us and have me drop him off. So random. But yea, he never came in and sat with us so we figured he left. OH..but first there was a lady in front of us who chatted with us for like 20 minutes about different plays. She is going to 'Sound of Music' now because we told her it was in Janurary. Fun stuff. But yea, then we went and found him and I guess he just waited out side because he thought it looked dumb. So we went to Burger King then took him home. Oh so random...

Today is Thanksgiving. I hope everyone is having an awesome holiday. This has to be the best, and craziest break ever! And it can only get better...

Simpler Times

Things used to be so much easier. In a time with breadsticks, Apple Bee's, picnics, track, car rides home, taking naps, quote books, hitting on waiters, reading rediculous sex books, laughing until it made us cry, talking to much on the phone (running my bill through the roof), going to the book store...everything about 'Girls Night'.

Maybe it's me. Who knows any more. Maybe I'm pushing people away so June is easier on everyone. Maybe it's bigger then that...I could have pissed people off. But with what? I can't figure it out any more and I'm sick of loosing sleep beating myself up over it.

"Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget."

I won't forget...but I am sick of crying...

Realization

So when things get you down you have to focus on the good things in life, and just say "fuck you" to the bad things. Surround your self with people who care about you and things you enjoy.

Everyday I make myself look forward to something to get me through the day. Well today the thing to get me through was the release of 'Bullet In A Bible'. So I bought that right after school and just watched it. So fucking awesome!

And back to awesome people in my life. Hannah is pretty awesome! And so is Becca...she actually wrote a song about me...Check it out:

Ode To Ches-ley In All Her Glory
Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Dixit dominus domino meo:
Sede a dextris meis.

Donec ponam inimicos tuos,
Scabelleum pedum tuorum.

Domimus a dextris tuis
Confregit in die irae suae reges.

De torrente in via bibet:
Propterea in exaltabit caput.

Gloria Patri, et Filio,
Et Spiritui Sancto.

Sucut erat in principio, et nunc et semper,
Et in saecula saeculorum. Amen.


Which in English OBVIOUSLY means:

Chelsey my red-headded goddess of love:
You are ridiculously hot.

With your sparkling personality
Everything in you is sweet.

You make me go crazy for you
Because of your attractiveness.

Your eyes glitter like diamonds in the moonlight
And cast a lovely shadow upon the earth.

Every day you make me smile
Everytime you pass my way

You make my spirit soar on the wings of a bluebird
And you are incredibly sexy. Hell yeah.

Reality

Back home and back to reality.

Why does reality have to sting?

Even gone for a weekend you miss so much. There are some things I don't even want to catch up on.

Went to drama, thought it'd be a fun welcoming. All the people I wanted to see didn't give a shit, and the ones I wouldn't expect were excited.

Guys are ass holes.

Depressed and upset about so many things.

Havn't even been back to school (actually) yet and I already want another break...I want to leave this shitty ass town with all the fucking retarded people that don't give a shit about me.

6 months, 3 weeks and 2 fucking days.

Why do you call me your friend? Think about that one....because I don't understand anymore.

Words are useless...body language is everything

Weekend Before Camp

Everything is packed and tomorrow I take off. Camp is going to be so much fun I can't wait. Hannah says she is sending me letters, can't wait to read them. She'll be the only one sending me any...probally the only one to notice I'm gone to.

This weekend has been awesome. I've hung out with people that don't get me down and actually care about me. They invite me to do stuff and it's pretty awesome. Friday I hung around my house until Chris called me up and stoped in shortly after. Him and I watched 'Sin City' and it was really cool. Not something I'd own, but I liked it a lot. Then Hannah got out of ACT and called us up and we got her and Chad and went to Bubble Island. I had never been and it was completly different from all the explanations everyone gave me. If you order bubbles, only ask for a few. Chad was right...they make you gag after like 5 minutes. They freaked me out, I didn't like sucking them up the straw because I was afraid I'd choke or something. AHh... Any ways, then we went to the book store and that was pretty awesome. I bought Rolling stones, which Billie (as you can see above) is on the cover of...AND it was the day it came out, because I am just that awesome.

Saturday I packed and other stuff throughout the day. Oh, and bought All-American Reject tickets. Chad, Hannah and probally Chris...oh yea baby, 4th ROW! They are playing with Rooney I hear...going to be freaking off the wall!

But later in the day...I know I did something. Oh, yea I went to Erin's house. Amber was there and a few other people, not many though. No guys where showing up so we called Chad and had him call his Haslett people. I went and got him, and Jake and Tommy showed up, but only for like a half hour. I felt bad, because they don't like scary movies. Yea, we watched 'Ammityville Horror" and "Garden State". I've finally seen it, although I missed a few parts. I have to watch it when I can guess the awesome lines.

Today we had to go load up for camp. Hung out with all the cool people who are going, then we had our little meeting. I'm with Emma, and our travel group is Brad and Kostick. Should be pretty awesome. And Chris and Chad, and Amber and Karlie are going to come over and hang out every night. I'll have a ton of stories.

After the meeting I had dinner with my mom, Ashley and Josiah. That was really fun actually. Cute little meal, and tons of laughing. Then I got Chris and we went to Hannah's to watch "Unleashed". Good movie. I have a new opinion on Jet Li. Wouldn't watch it again, just because I can't watch Dramas twice. But I really liked it.

I have a new habbit of chewing on a guitar pick while I'm at the computer...Random.

Have a good week ya'll....be back Friday 12:30!

Unemployment

With all of the events of last week, and some that happened this week my parents sat down and decided they didn't want me working in Lansing any more. I totally don't blaim them, in fact I was starting to get freaked out. I didn't like having to worry about being safe, because...growing up here you don't really need to. Any who...yeah, tonight was my last night working.

I'm now unemployed

As much as I'm not going to like not having money right away, there are some major bennifits to this. First off I want to spend more time then I have been working on drama stuff. Right now it gets to 4 o clock, and I head out for work. But now I have no commitment so it really doesn't matter, I can stay around and help. Also I want to work more on video stuff. I think I've stayed after editing for about an hours worth this year. All summer we talked about being there until midnight and ordering pizza. Stuff your suppose to do in high school.

And my school work has lacked from having a job. I mean, three nights a week I get home anywhere between 9-10 and by that point I don't want to do an hour or more worth of homework, I just want to go to bed. So yea...I put stuff off and its bad. I don't know if my homework will improve or not...but now I'll have no excuse.

On another note camp is next week. I'm excited. A week away from everything...along with other bonuses.

And I emailed the actor Lou Taylor Pucci...and got a responce back tonight. It was a cute responce, I was surprised to have gotten anything honestly. But yea...that was kind of exciting.

But now I'm tired...um, so yea...haha...