I Feel Alone

What would have happened if it was all true? My world would have flipped upside down. If it was only a few more weeks, or days? And why not tell me sooner. "Because how do I break something like that to you?" Sure she wanted to wait until it was a false alarm to tell me, but what if it wasn't false alarm. So wait until it's offical "I may be dieing" What would I have done?

I don't know where to vent. I don't know if I want to vent. If you can't write what can you do?

The day last year when I went to the doctor just because my knee bothered me, and they said "You might have a blood clot, go to the emergancy room". I had never been so scared in my life. I relived it listening to your story. You went through the same thing but couldn't even tell me. Yours was worse! And it wasn't from start to finish in a matter of hours. You spent all week with doctors. You've known since Friday night. I saw you Sunday! Why not mention it? And you only got in the clear two hours before I saw you. It's been going on a week. "I didn't want to worry you".

Somethings in life just scare the shit out of you. What are you suppose to do to calm yourself down if no one answers?