Scared To Let Go Of This Year For I'm Scared Of What's To Come

So nothing really new or exciting has happened. And I have no topic inperticular on my mind. But less then 24 hours from now and 2005 will be gone forever, to only be a memory. 2006 scares the shit out of me, but its something I have to suck up and deal with.

I sit there during the silences and realize how much I've changed. And I think about how I used to be, and how I am now and the things that have changed. And all I can say is thank god. I am so much happier with myself now. I mean, even from a few months ago. And I only have my friends to thank. I still have grudges that I'm working on, but within a few months they will not matter at all, therefore they shouldn't matter now.

"If you won't remember that little fight or argument five years from now, it doesn't matter" - Probally the only thing I remember from church.

I need to let some things go, even though its hard when others don't do the same. But I can only work on myself. I like myself so much better...gosh. I don't want to graduate because I'm afraid of changing. Okay, god...anywho.

I said something tonight that has really stuck in my head, and makes me think of any and all of my friends in the past. And I can't help but think of all the good times I had with them, and it makes me forget the bad. So if you kiddos learn anything from me....

"People will always come and go in our lives, and we just have to enjoy the time we have with them while we get it"