Can I Lay In Your Bed All Day?

Why do they always do this to me?

I was finally set. I had made up my mind and was going to put it off until the play is over. The play is over and now they bring up a new option. And it isn't that it isn't a good idea, it actually makes more since. It's the end of January and I havn't decided yet. Goodness.

Why are they on the same side. They both think that it would make more since, and it does. If I could live there I would do that. I can't live at home. Not because I can't stand 'home'. I would live here in a heartbeat if I could. I just know I'll get in a slump. I won't bother meeting new people, because all my friends would be still as close. A fresh start is what I need. He understands that, he says he wished the same thing.

If money wasn't an issue.

It's their fault it is an issue.

Maybe my problem is I run through my head deep down over and over, "if you don't think about it...it won't happen". I'm scared to death. I feel like I have no one to talk to. Any one in my grade seems to already know what they're doing. If not, then I think we're all faking it here. Then anyone else I'm close to doesn't have to worry about this for another year or two.

While I'm at it....Fuck Calculators.

Sounds like he is okay with no job. He never came out and said it but he realizes the complications. You have no idea how happy that makes me. April 27th is the next play, which means early April we get extremly busy. By the time I found one I'd need to quit. To bad the last job turned bad, I could walk in there tomorrow and start and leave whenever I wanted. I picked the days of the week I wanted and everything. If only they weren't located where they are...

Feburary 9th I'm going to die.

I never realized it until now...but I really do love flowers.

It drives me nuts I can't get you out of my head.

I looked into your eyes today and realized how proud I am of you. I strive for that courage...

'Cause I'll keep singing this lie if you'll keep believing it.
I'll keep singing this lie, I'll keep singing this lie.