There Were Hints And Allegations

Out of all things that I hate, I think I hate standardized tests the most. I've never really thought they judge how smart a person is in any way shape or form. And I've pretty much always been bitter taking them. I choose not to take the ACT or SAT because I wasn't going to pay to be told, you suck at test taking...it's already a fact I live with.

I've known all along that I wasn't going to get the Meap money. But since they give you three tries, I figured I'd work my best at it. I stayed up last night way later then I should have working on the online test help and actually trying to pass this thing. I went to the reading one today and I just about threw up when the readings were about history. The only thing better could have been science. Every paragraph and sentence I wrote for the responce I sat there realizing I was going no where with my point. I pretty much gave up after my second supporting paragraph. I barely got out of the room before having a tear run down my face, I just wanted to go home after that.

I've never had less self confidence and more hate for myself ever in my life. I seriously just feel like an idiot. Between this, and the ones I had to do in October, and my wonderful basic math test that took I think a total of 5 tries, I'm pretty much the smartest kid there is.

GAhhh

I hate school.

I need nothing more then a vacation.....only 9 more days.

And only 42 more wonderful days of school.

I really will miss it. I think I am the most attatched out of the seniors I talk to. I'm just bitter, and frusterated, and in need of.....some ice cream and a hug.

After High School is over there will probably be more things I will cherish and want back then the things I hate. I should just look at the good stuff in this year. I've made so many new friends. And when will I ever be apart of a play again? The fear of being Pat is the only thing that makes me hesitate on coming next year. And when will I ever enjoy my lunch on the floor next to a vending machine ever again? And when will I sit and color in english and be told that it's prepping me for college.

If you'll be my bodyguard
I can be your long lost pal

You can call me Al

I'm in a better mood already. Thanks.