...Cause It's The Last You'll Ever Get

The play is over and it ended awesome. Every night got a little better which is always good. There was a lot of laughter throughout today. Had to track down a cast member. Got one of the cutest most thoughtful gifts ever. And now it's all done.

It didn't only take 2 minutes to get over....It took 5.

My aunt is in the hospital and nothing has changed since this morning. Maybe surgery tomorrow, although that's the bad route. We're hoping it doesn't get to that. May be pulled out of school if it gets much worse.

Met the girl my dad has been talking to. She's cute, I suppose I approve. Never had to meet someone like that. A little bit awkward.

So Take A Chance And Make It Big...

Opening night ended up being nothing like what I was hoping for. The programs were a disappointment. Being yelled at isn't fun. Being blamed for all of the mistakes isn't cool. Being sworn at, who likes that? And then getting 0 recognition.

Went home that night very upset. I just kept thinking how this is my last play and I should be enjoying it. So before the performance last night I sucked up my bitterness and hatred towards certain people and decided I was going to have fun with it. Well it worked and the Friday night show ended up going pretty flawless. One or two mistakes here and there, mostly light issues...which I guess is my fault? Ha.

Our traditional cast dinner was really fun also. Although looking at pizza at this point pretty much makes me want to vomit.

Two more performances. That's all I get. Then acting and performing will be out of my life. Sure I'll help next year, but I won't be a student, I won't be in the class and it'll just be a completely different feeling.

There's no better high then the feeling you get from any performing art. When you hear "House lights are going down, send out the actors" it's just the coolest thing in the world.

It's Much Better To Face These Kinds Of Things With A Sense Of Poise And Rationality

This week has been so crazy. I have about a million and five things on my to-do list. If it weren't for the help from Hannah I think I might have died from now. But we joke about how I'm just "training" her for next year.

Uhh...65 hours spent at school this week. Compared to the normal 35.

Suppose to go in tomorrow for an hour or two. Matt says he's bringing me cookies, what a cutie.

Also have practise for a few hours Sunday.

Will the spiking ever get done?

Had to throw in the towel today at 7. I couldn't spend my entire weekend in that auditorium. We called Alex and hung out with him. I love how random he is. First a play with a K-12 school with less people then our senior class.

And I thought we were small.

Then a bon fire at some billionare's house. "Nothing they own cost less then $1,000". Crazy cool people. With a gay dog.

Made a new friend. Actually I should call him...I'm suppose to.

Went from another failed prom to having two dates today. I'm excited again, it should be fun.

As much stress as the play is, I'm completly loving it. Well...I will be once I recharge a little.

"If you're not stressed out, you're not putting in enough effort"

It's Sleeping With Roaches And Taking Best Guesses

If there was one thing I could improve about myself, at the moment, it would be dealing with the results of stress. For one play I gained a ton of weight. For another I lost a ton. I guess for this play I'm dealing with extreme headaches and unfortenatly throwing up. I came home today and actually got out early which meant 5:30. I started working on the english project which I already spent 3 hours on yesterday. I finally gave up around 9 o' clock considering I'm maybe half way done, and after talking on the phone with my mom about how much I have going through my head right now I threw up 3 different times.

Luckily I'm only in 2 hours tomorrow because of a feild trip. I can't really complain much about the scheduale for drama, I mean 30 other people are dealing with the same thing. I just wish it didn't come with the side affects. Lack of sleep, getting behind in your other classes, changing your eating patterns and so on. If you could get it all done with the fun the entire time I'd be completly happy.

I can't deny that underneath it all I'm totally loving it. I mean this is the last play I get to be a part of, at least as a student. It's still up in the air whether I'm going to help next year, I guess I'll just see when it gets here. But my last play and there's only 14 days left. That's so incredibly sad to me. After that I go back to going home at 3 o clock, having nothing to do. No practise to look forward to. Not seeing the awesome drama kids day after day.

Ya gotta love the feeling of being in a play, but you can't hide that it all definatly comes with a price.

It's Time For Us To Take A Chance

So the name of the game this weekend has been randomness.

Started at the mall with really cheap jeans. Then trying on dresses for prom, I think I may like one. I'm not picky so I knew it wouldn't be hard. Then back to Hannah's to memorize lines on the merry-go-round, but first I was attacked by a tree. I swear I was bleeding. Then back to her house for just enough time to come up with going to the apple orchard. Well turns out they are closed this time of the year, so we ended up in some hick ville for gas. Then into Owosso to see my sister. She was working and gave us free bread. And I guess she bought me a t-shirt, which I can't wait to get.

On the way home we didn't want to be done and home so randomly decided to do random pop-ins. First seeing Jake, then seeing Rachel. Then going with Rachel back to Jake's. The intent was a bon fire but we ended up only watching TV.

Most of early today I relaxed and didn't worry about anything until later in the afternoon. Hannah and I headed out for breadsticks because they were way over due. As soon as we walked in though we found Alex, who wasn't working so I don't really know why he was there. But he got us breadsticks and pop for under $2. Ken then magically got let out of work 2 hrs early so we all went to Best Buy until we decided a movie would be fun.

Ended up at NCG seeing 'Scary Movie 4'. Really funny. Took the ped calling some people. No one answered their phones so we ended up calling Alex back up. We didn't TP but we ended up at a bon fire with him which was really fun. It was like a bonfire on a lake which was the coolest thing ever. And met new friends; Dan aka "The hot one" and Mark. Mark sat and told us his life story, so random and open.

It's been pretty fun, and I love being able to drive around with my windows down but not have it so hot you gag. And coming home smelling like smoke. There isn't anything more summer then that. Except maybe having strawberries, kewi and green grapes.

And As They Say Here's To Oblivion

It's crazy how tiny little things can completly make your day awesome or totally shitty.

I've been getting a lot of random txts and IMs lately...they make me smile.

The weather has been helping my mood. Although I admit I feel really numb lately. Things that should upset me do nothing, and things that should totally excited be nothing also. I feel so hollow.

I'm in love with my new CDs.

The play is getting to its stressful part. I have so much I could sit and complain about it, but it'd be pointless. In two weeks time I'll be ranting about how much I enjoyed it and how much of an awesome experience it was for me, and how theatre rocks above all other things. So I'm sucking up the shitty part of it.

My dad is all smiles since his date. And his 2 hour phone calls every night, and I think he has mentioned more then 3 times how he sent her flowers. A little proud of himself right there I think.

And my mom is extremly stressed with her business. Yeah...HER business. So where in there am I obligated to be at her side constantly? I feel like she puts me on a guilt trip when I have play practise. I told her to pretty much not count on seeing me until May 1st. Don't worry...I already know I'm a bitch.

I know we just had Spring Break but I can not wait for this long weekend. Maybe it's just the contents of it. I think all involved can agree it's been WAY to long. I'm excited.

Easter is Sunday. Meaning family time. And sounds like the only ones I enjoy aren't even coming. And I didn't even get the desert I wanted, instead we get the fake topping raspberries.

Word of Advice: Don't take your shoes off while on the stairs.

Also: Don't skip over tree trunks...some how they manage to bite ya.

Maybe it's the lack of sleep but I've had a headache for three straight days....

*all pointless*

'Cause Earl Had To Die

Spring Break was awesome. So many memories and ended with us all dreading coming home to reality.
Some fine points would be my mom running into the door in the middle of the night.
Waking up an hour early for the sunset?
Plotting to cross the sea/river/ocean (it was a lake).
A boat to New York would only be 2 hours Tia?
Garage Man, and his pal Pooky.
Snowing.
Not getting our only wish...a thunderstorm.
Tia's Birthday.
Her being to snoopy for the ice cream cake.
It melted into semen.
Trying on 2XL clothes gets you yelled at, even if you don't take pictures in the store.
We never claimed our free coffee.
Feeling like family at the local bar.
The bar family...crazy local drunk, his stuffed dog, Jamie, Mad Dog, Sasquatch, his son kind of, Ma and Pa, and the 23-year-old birthday boy stripper.
We weren't old enough the second night?
Not old enough to stand on one side of the resturant...even though they didn't even ask our age.
Rent / Frequancy / Brokeback Mountain / The Fog / Ferris Bueller's Day Off / Murder By Numbers.
"Maybe it's like paint by numbers, those are easy right?"
Our homemade fire.
The rat poison cake.
Daily phone calls from Hannah.
The cript in the basement.
Plotting to make a movie.
Bondage at The Book Nook.
The cute store my mom is going to sell at.
Never seeing teenagers.
Coming out Pluto's ass.
Always making Tia do the dirty work.
Letting Tia walk in the alley.
"You kids go straight home, no stopping in the woods"
My mom dissapearing for way to many hours at a time, but never telling us where.
She's moving to London?
The art project.
Paper thin walls.
Tia screaming in her sleep.
Waking up to her weird looks.
Having Rachel visit us in the morning.
Plotting to 'do it' in the whale.
DDR / Mario Party / Donkey Kong.
Gets ya fucked up.
Tastes like sweet tarts.
Offered a round of drinks, but we're good kids so we said no.
Wal-Mart whore.
Used Beer.
Theme songs.
Spring Break Soundtrack.
Rachel making the song sound like porn?
Jake giving us the sex talk with the plate pieces.
You know what?
Writing on the fence.

Hmm, hmm, hmm I love this bar

We're Still So Young, Desperate For Attention

It appears that someone broke into my car within the last 24 hrs and tried to steal my cd player. Awesome.

My weekend has consisted of getting ready for up north. Lots of cleaning and that stuff. Pretty much uneventful but at the same time I've been non-stop busy.

I'll never look at a garbage truck the same.

You can get breadsticks and only order a drink.

Took Kelly's Bubble Island-Virginity away.

Ate at an awesome resturant right near Tomato Brother's. Same type of place like the one in Greek Town.
Really good bread, made me smile.

Everytime I go to the eye doctor they always tell me something bad. This time, my eyes aren't getting enough oxygen. Therefore I'm growing additional blood vessals, the early signs of my 3rd eye tumor. Had to switch my type of contacts, had to get a stronger type also. And picked out new glasses. What fun.

My stalker was at Meijer's while I was grocery shopping for my trip. My mom tried to make it better, didn't help. I was stalked all through Meijer's, I almost barfed.